A little something more

This may sound crazy..

Wed, 23 Dec 2009 15:03:22 GMT

ive sent messages saying im bored, ive called to talk about uni stuff etc..
but that wasnt the real case.
i did that cos i miss him & i need to hear his voice.
& now ive used up all of my excuses..

other times i think i deserve so much better than this.
why am i going through all this pain alone when i still have so many people around to support me?
but no. its not that easy.
i pray to make this work.
& i pray one day he'll love me as much as i love him.

im crazy & stupid like that.

xoxo

Thu, 10 Dec 2009 00:15:43 GMT

My dear friends,
sometimes in life you get the right people to hang out with, you get the right guy,& you have the perfect moment for everything which makes you feel that your life's perfect and you try your hardest for everything to be as it is. but then the next day you wake up and everything's gone.
you dont know what to do or feel so you smiled instead. but noone knows that inside you're crumbling. so much worse than what a definition of crumbling would be. you want support but you found none. & advices and whats not are just making things worse. all you wanna do is to just be alone. so in the end you chose to shut down from the world.

& so this is it. be gone i shall.

Spread your wings

Sat, 28 Nov 2009 11:40:21 GMT

HELLO READERS!
im in utter excitement and desperation cos im free at last!
papers were screwed and i'd need a miracle for results
but well that's for the later part to worry.
i shall enjoy myself for the holidays
cos it's my favourite season coming in just a wink!
The decorations are up and Mr Santa's out.
It's the warm fuzzy feeling i love most.
Sitting around in circles with the family, praying together,
singing christmas carols together, & dad playing mr santa.
This christmas would be even better with bf.
(even if he's a few km away)
i thank God for everything. (:

Misery

Sat, 21 Nov 2009 23:35:59 GMT

Exams are splitting us apart for approx. 2 weeks.
plus the bf is flying off in exactly 5 days for a month.
so that'll be 2 months of jeffry-less. Not good.

1 down, 3 to go!

In the air

Fri, 13 Nov 2009 11:59:39 GMT

I love giving.
Esp when it makes one so happy he cant stop smiling (:

Post exam syndrome

Tue, 10 Nov 2009 10:27:57 GMT

Everyone around campus aint in their best moods these days.
& im having the most major pimple outbreak in the century! no kidding.
1 more week to the final!
Almost the whole campus is burying themself in books 247.
It gets you really stressed out when you see the hard cores
cos as much as you think you've studied it just doesnt feel enough.

oh no oh no so many things, so little time!!
Grrreat.

One can never be satisfied

Sun, 01 Nov 2009 22:27:15 GMT

I am in love with a particular pair of heels..
but buying that would mean that i have to declare bankruptcy cos it costs AU$140.
but omgosh it's too gorgeous!
why cant i just have all the money in the worldd

Thy soul

Sat, 31 Oct 2009 00:29:19 GMT

San churros ftw. Banana choco shake/ churros chocolate dip..

First and foremost, Happy Birthday to dearest Shahilia Munnawar Bhagat!
do come soon cos i miss you like crazy and it'll be so much fun when you come!

Im suppose to start studying by now but there's just so many exciting things out there
that's preventing me to study. how now wow cow?

Esp. that today is haloween.
No trick or treats/ No playing dress ups cos everyone's so busy.
Well i guess dressing up in your pj counts?
Well how bout you? what do you wanna be?

The fear you have

Mon, 26 Oct 2009 21:54:21 GMT

My mum just answered one of the many questions i have in life..
No doubt, my mum understands me the most.

3 weeks to finals.

No tears left to cry

Sat, 24 Oct 2009 00:06:47 GMT

There's things i want to talk about to make myself feel better....

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....but i dont know what to say.
or rather.. i prefer not to talk about it?

forget it i shall leave.

Goodbyes.

Mon, 19 Oct 2009 23:39:29 GMT

Saturday:

It was Stef's farewell outing. Cant believe he's leaving the country for good! so saddd
the day was spent with smiles and laughter though, even the gf. coss we're all excited for Final Destination in 3D haha!
But when night came, it was time to say goodbye and omg it was so sad ttm!

Bye Steff! we'll miss yaa!

Mon, 19 Oct 2009 01:09:41 GMT

aww the adorable buble and his hot gf.
this song's been stuck in my head for the past week. love it!
& i love how happy this video makes one feel.

and i know that we can be so amazing
and baby your love is gona change me
and now i can see every possibility...

and somehow i know that it'll all turn out
and you'll make me work so we can work to work it out
and i promise you i'll give so much more than i get ...

One of the pms syndrome?

Sat, 17 Oct 2009 12:25:56 GMT

i constantly fear one day you'll get sick and tired of the same old things and of me.
cos i am of no help, i dont know about anything and i am not as smart as any other girls out there.
But im trying. i really am.

& stupidly enough i dont know how to say all these to you straight.
that's me.

Life as it is

Tue, 13 Oct 2009 23:12:40 GMT

How do you please everyone around you without disappointing anyone at all?

Nothing.No clue.Can't.

cos i havent been a very good daughter & i havent been a very good girlfriend.

im probably just PMSing so dont bother.

Big 2

Sun, 11 Oct 2009 23:24:24 GMT

Yesterday we celebrated sis' 20th.
while she was watching broadway theatre me & Jeff bought cakes and candles
and we did a lil but of shopping too! haha
so we waited for the sun to set and then called Kev to blindfold her and bring her in.
Then we had an awesome bbq buffet after..

anywayy, i cant wait for the dreadful semester to end..

i want my holiday! but i shall not whinge
cos the more i whinge the more i feel time's passing too slowly..

so yeah. till the next time i decide to unbusy myself!

Angels

Tue, 29 Sep 2009 13:54:18 GMT

So, this year's bday was a very very special one indeed.

The day was spent nicely with Jeff and sissy (sister that is haha) at bondi beach.
Love it!

Then night came.
Jeff drove me to this place where a surprise was waiting for me.
(He thinks im v v bad at directions and i wouldnt know where he's taking me to but i did!)
A few of my friends were there & i knew something's gona happen!

That btw ain't flour. it's SUGAR! & no this wasn't it!
i ran, i screamed, i hid but they just wanted to throw the cake at me so badly..

But in the end that's what made the day memorable.
esp when there was a shooting star & they were like
"omg! i swear that was a shooting star!! made a wish yet?"
the thing is.. they all saw it except me.. hahah! oh wellz.

so again.. this wasn't it.
There was another surprise coming the next day.
A package with a very faimilar handwriting.
i unwrapped it & the "GUESS by marciano" box excites me so bad i wanted to literally scream
Opened the box and there it was.. the prettiest heels from the most special girls on earth.
Since i misplaced my phone, the only person i can call was Jeff.
so i called him, screamed, smile to myself & emailed the FTTs with caps lock! haha
cos yknow.. if i was a billionaire i would send a private jet over so the FTTs could be here
to spend with me the most special bday. but no, im no billionaire.
so receiving something from them is already the most joyous thing that can happen!

oh look at that gorgeous thing!

& that's the story of the best birthday i have ever had.

Spring has sprung

Sat, 26 Sep 2009 03:41:22 GMT

Sydney was hit by a dustorm 4 days ago.
It was crazy. The sky was red at dawn and then it turned orange after.
Everyone thought the world's coming to an end haha
but all is well now.

Sooo, now that Spring is here and the sun's out,
we're all ready to make a fool of ourselves.

Watson bay:

Canberra:
Floriade spring festival, Parliament house, National war memorial






i am so so so tired i shall take an afternoon nap
till next time!

XOXO.

satisfaction don't come easy

Thu, 10 Sep 2009 12:50:32 GMT

i just got home.
i spent the whole day with Jeff.
i window-shopped with him.
i am now a happy little girl. (:

im sorry there's no other choice

Sun, 30 Aug 2009 00:45:02 GMT

i'm going to lose a very dear friend.
so very dear noone could break us apart
until now

'cos it was either you or the dearest one of all

Quench

Mon, 24 Aug 2009 01:45:37 GMT

2 days ago i cooked for lunch. Not bad for a beginner i must say so myself!

2 days ago i ate like a pig.
that meat pie may look crap but boy oh boy it tastes like heaven!
that's mashed peas w/ gravy & tomato ketchup btw.
best things to go with a meat pie!

2 days ago Jeff gave me links to these:

if only he gave me the real thing.. haha!
oh my oh my i've always dreamt of having a house w/ a scenery like those.
imagine waking up in the morning to the sound of waves..
yes yes. i would own it one day!

& 2 days ago i watched cin(t)a.
This movie bout a catholic boy and a muslim girl trying to make things work.
But no it didnt.
It's so sad how they prepared to split,
both of em spending the last moments together and then say "this is it"
oh well. i know that feeling alright.

ASS-ignments

Sat, 22 Aug 2009 00:52:23 GMT

This was what i had for supper last night.
Incredibly satisfying (:

11-20 degrees today.
Just the perfect weather to have a nice deep sleep..
But here i am infront of this pile of assignments begging to be done.
well at least it looks like it to me haha
life oh life.

PMS, not?

Thu, 20 Aug 2009 04:03:37 GMT

Everyone's so friggin' pissy ever since yesterday.
i did this, i did that..

I don't wana bother anymore.

Dang it!

Tue, 18 Aug 2009 03:54:59 GMT

I want long long hair, of which aint growing
I want the perfect body, of which is impossible to be achieved
I want spring, of which i got to wait for a few more weeks
I have lots n lots n lots of assignments to be done, of which am just too tired to do

Oh Goodness Gracioussss!

"monthiversary"

Mon, 17 Aug 2009 00:42:01 GMT

Care for the best pancakes in town?? (:

the view we got while having sips of guylian chocolate shake
& we talked n talked n talked we didnt realise what time it was!

All in all,
happy 2nd dearest one!

& of course HAPPY BIRTHDAY INDONESIA! (:

A little too old?

Sun, 02 Aug 2009 02:44:06 GMT

went for Disney on ice: princess wishes yesterday and it was awesomexx
felt a little weird at first cos everyone around us were 4-7 year olds in their princess costumes
but oh well!! i guess i'll never get bored with disney! haha
had a bbq after. and i ate to my heart's content which equals to crazily mass amount of fats in my bodeehh.

kk my eyes are so tired it can just shut down any minute now. ciaoz!